fornever!

so my last post was about well, how lifelesss my life was. however, it seems to have taken a turn in the opposite direction in these last few weeks and i almost wish i could return to the simplicity of the former monotony. as of late, my weeks consist of interning at toyota 3 days a week and attending class/interning for the galleries on campus on the other 2 days...not to mention preparing for my rapidly approaching senior show (which determines if i graduate or not), and oh yeah occasionally i like to have a social life. throw in a sorority duty here and there and the imperative march madness games and that makes for quite the jam-packed schedule. some people like to stay busy and would consider all of these involvements a joy. i on the other hand, like my free time. i live for the moments when i have absolutely no obligations or responsibilities, when NOTHING is the only thing i have to do. that hasn't happened in a while. in fact, i cannot even recall the last time i experienced such a thrill. probably when i was seven. but that would have been when having no duties was purely legitimate. since ive "grown up," when i experience these rare moments, they can never be completely void of regret or guilt. i suppose as we mature, we realize that there is always something that needs to be done and not a moment to waste. i hate that nagging feeling. so its a good thing i know how to ignore it. take that productivity.

*the title of this post does not really directly relate to the post, but im sure you can cleverly find a way to tie it in somehow ;)